Ignited Thoughts.....

IPL (indian party league)..

2010-03-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

Indian premier league or IPL is the talk of the town, rather city/state/country/world..so much hysteria around it, mainly coz of the money involved, the masala cricket ie 2020 format being dished out, the cheergirls, the team owners vis-a-vis mallya's , srk's ,preity,shilpa, ambani's etc...its fun, its party time for cricket lovers in india ..:)

but what irks me about IPL is the astronomical sums of money being wasted like nything..yes, "wasted" is the word in living india & i will give you the reason why i have used that word...

talking about team owners....Do u really think mr.Vijay mallya, shah rukh khan, mukesh ambani, shilpa shetty, preity zinta n 3 more idiots really think/care about cricket and are trying their best to find cricketing talents for the country???...do u think dis is what they are here for??..do u think mallya as a liquor baron, or ambani as a head honcho of one of the top companies, or the filmy people really care abt genNext of indian cricketers or cricket in particular??..why dont they show the same interest in indian hockey or football or athletics??...do u think these people are here for cricket's benefit/concern??...if u think yes, then u better read next blog..:)

im not against them buying out teams more so if they really contribute 2wards helping the nation getting some valuable talent pool ready b4hand for the national team...ohh common, they are here for money, dis is Business of cricket,a BAZAAR where players are bought n sold like cows n buffaloes...n it hurts wen players vie for getting picked up in the IPL team more rather than participating in their respective domestic teams..:( (yes some players play with more tenacity for their ipl teams than their national team.)

im not against IPL...im against the business being made out of cricket..coz of this now the HIRE N FIRE policy of Corporate life will gradually find its place in cricketing world...:(

now talking about the money involved...
-Rs 1 lakh a ride from mahalaxmi racecourse to nerul via helicopter...
-Rs 10 lakh fine for slower over rates..
-exorbitant packages n prizes for players & postmatch parties(irrespective of the outcome of the match)
-cheergirls :D nice....where's mr RR PATIL ??

dis face of IPL is a mere illusion of what living India presently is not...i agree, money is there in football also, bt take a look @ those countries and their position in global economy n compare it with us...u think we can afford spending millions or trillions on cricket wen we are not e1 fully developed yet..

CRPF jawans are fighting naxals in dhoni's backyard w/o food n water n not enuf bullets...n dhoni drives through the same road wid his lexus,not dhoni's fault though....no surprises we dont have a jharkand ipl team coz only dhoni is wealthy there..:P ...rajasthan royals:-rajasthan is royal only in history text books now..im sure shilpa shetty doesnt e1 know what is the current scenario in rajasthan is to be called Royal...n how does shane warne care abt it? n why will he?

the point is, so much of money being spent on dis leisure activity is not in sync with India's current financial position...dis is huge, astronomical sums of money being involved n what does india gain out of it?..the only gainers are team owners and some players who perform well here n then take early retirement from international cricket to play in future ipl tourney's...

Finally the man who made things work(or rather money work)..Lalid modi- dis man showed his class wen ipl was moved out of india last yr due to security concerns, he juz wanted dis event to take place irrespective of what happened in mumbai days before (FU modi :x)..i saw his comments saying IPL will become bigger than NBA(USA), or English premier league, Spanish league...now who wont be happy seeing dat happen,e1 i will be, but i will be e1 more happy if we match those countries in other areas as well...:)

Vaat of living...:P

2009-12-27T00:31:00.000-08:00

i saw a movie 2de.....at a nearby mall....a fantastic movie but cost me Rs:300 for d tickets n Rs:75 for d popcorns....:):P

Let me rewind the time a few years back wen i used to see a complete movie wid popcorns n samosas n cold drinks all for Rs:75,obviously i dont expect prices to remain stagnant for over the years(they are a measure of a country's growth).Growth has been exponential over the last few years, but this exponential rise, sadly, in india's case, is only in inflation n nowhere else.....Suddenly movie watching, a so called leisure activity , a nice way to spend ur weekend...has become a LUXURY for d majority of indians...i will not be surprised if people start bragging abt watching a movie in d malls in the nearby future as they now brag about flying business class OR dining at the taj...

here we are...embracing the mall culture...our playgrounds have been dug up, malls have been built on them ...bats n stumps are replaced by joysticks n keyboards(no surprises dat we suck @ d olympics)....things like a simple family outing in d market or a garden n having a bite of our favourite chats n icecream have all been encapsulated by a single visit to the mall today...

We are living in a country where the government gives 25 kgs of rice for people below poverty line at Rs: 3 per kg....(which makes me think dat my popcorn is a month's ration for someone..)...n i didnt even eat it completely...:(....

if we were living in a developed country n our GDP's soaring new highs..i wont mind the exorbitant rates in the multiplexes or be it anywhere...bt we arent dat developed yet....we still knock on the doors of world bank for building our infrastructure...our literacy rate is 66 % which is way below the avg 84% of d world...our premier educational institutes(IIM's n IIT's) have fees which only the ELITE can afford...we are surrounded by religous boundaries n ethical constraints of the pre-historic era..where untouchability is prevalent in 70% of india....our police people still use world war 2 rifles( n i better do not discuss their way of living).....the electricity is not 24x7 even in metropolis's like mumbai....we have a long way to go for being developed i guess....

U may think im a miser(kanjus)...bt i am not against spending money re...i dont feel any movie, however good it is...has the attributes to be priced at Rs:300 & above at dis stage in living India......Yes India is booming, yes our gdp's rising, n yes i know people will say those who will afford it will go n those who cant will not...exactly, dats my point...is a simple thing like movie watching now a thing to be afforded???...juz think abt it...:))

Candles n Banners wont do....

2009-11-30T04:49:00.000-08:00

A politician will do anything to keep his job, even become a patriot-
William Randolph Hearst....

Mr.William never visited india it seems....lest he wud have been contradicted rite there...

Talking abt 26/11...d media has tried evry trick in d book to haunt us wid d dreaded memories of those 3 days..by digging up vital conversations to showing some new classified documents n blabla...asking for bites from survivors n pple who have lost their dear ones....never caring a bit of what it is to them to relieve those days again...

one thing i remember an analyst saying last year dat d only thing dat will hamper India's progress is d electronic media(nt blaming them for 26/11 though)...bt if only they wud have not shown live pictures of d operation it may have ended early...their telecast served as vital inputs to d terrorists inside....n nw a year later they r praising themselves for telecasting d OP wid their lives at stake.....how brave naa??

abt our bureaucracy...they cant find a missing bullet proof jacket...have borrowed MP5's n AK's from SRPF for d force1 commandos.....still working wid world war 2 rifles.....some have weapons bt dont knw how to use them....our IPS/IAS Officers fight amongst themselves for plum postings...some ran away from d scene fearing death...can they prevent/handle another attack?...its debatable...bt still i'll back them coz we knw d stress they are working under..these r capable men...highly efficient if given d freedom n infrastructure....bt their capability goes for a walk with the bureaucratic constraints they have been put up wid...

i cnt undstnd why d confusion.....d solution is pretty simple n straight fwd....

India is a sovereign country....so is Israel....the thing is crystal clear pple....wht does Israel do wen there is an attack(they have done dat evrytime after d 1972 munich massacre)...they bomb n destroy all d terrorist bases in syria n lebanon....we too can do dat n dismantle d terrorist infrastructure in Pak within days(dat doesnt mean a WAR)....bt we wont...n i dont knw why...I guess evry1 has vested interests..may be in these terrorist attacks too....u never knw...

i saw a program on NDTV wid P Chidambaram, our home minister being d guest n d youth of india as audience...one guy bombarded him wid queries abt how kasab is d most secure mumbaikar, abt weapon's used by our police etc..all he did was counter question dat guy "what would u have done in my position??"..d guy was silent...n then PC said "dats ur answer"....i was like WTF!!!...isnt he answerable to d union of india being d minister...dat guyz job was to question him abt wht is being done n it was PC's prerogative to give him a satisfactory answer...common man.."if u cant answer us/assure us....FO!!...n put sm1 else in dat position who can"...

The point is ...we need "Men of Steel" in d Cabinet at d centre....pple who can take stern "Decisions" rather than give warnings only(pak now takes such warnings as juz another stmt).....Manmohan n his men dont have d balls 2 call d shots(dat doesnt mean War)...i think they have their next speeches ready...d so called "pakistan must stop terrorist activities in POK"...why d hell ask them....do it man...we have the sovereign, integral n social right to protect our fellow countrymen n @ whatever cost ....make an army man d president of our country...n i bet this will stop within days...now who will do dat...obviously we...n how?.....by joining d system...by entering d bureaucracy...Give IAS/IPS, join army... form a party,enter politics....u have to enter d gutter to clean it..it is same here also only d gutter here is perennial n more filthy than the one besides d road...bt who will give up a plum pvt sector job for it...instead they'll better lit another candle during next homage ceremony...or send an sms...or observe a minute silence...or wear T shirts wid anti-terrorism quotes.....

Till then...we r sitting ducks for another attack...candles will be lit....condemnation speeches will be ready...media will go crazy...cricket matches will stop..only temporarily though....n d cycle continues..

our 4th fundamental duty clearly says"dat we should defend our country n render services to it whenever required"...isnt the TIME now?? ...If u think lighting candles n paying homage is ur only responsiblity 2wards ur society/nation...then the next candle lit will be for u....

We must be d change we wish 2 see.......ofcourse u have ur right to follow what u want...:)

Indira Mam...INDIA misses U!!!!

2009-11-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

"My father was a statesman, I am a political woman. My father was a saint. I am not."
-Indira Gandhi

Indira Gandhi was a gift to India, to d world...She was d only MAN in congress infact d only man congress party ever had...a lady whoz name itself commands respect n gratitude from all sects of our society...therz hardly ny1 in india who does nt miss her...rite from d time we(my generation) were growing up we were told n briefed abt Indira Gandhi by our parents n elders...she was nt introduced to us as our 1st lady prime minister neither as a congresswomen...bt she was introduced to us as how an ideal prime minister, woman, mother, daughter, politician etc should be...unfortunate in india's destiny though we had only one...

Indira mam was dynamic, she was sensitive n ruthless at d same time...n if u need a symbol of decision making shez one....her famous words " you cannot shake hands wid a clenched fist" .....our current PM is exactly opposite though.....India owes its victory in 1971 war wid pak to indira...if only, if only she was here 2de one wonders to think how she would have wiped of d menace of terrorism in india in matter of days if nt weeks...d current congress govt doesnt have d balls to do it...e1 if its for our own people....indira would have attacked d problem from where its originating...n ended d mess once n for all....she would never to think twice wen it came to national security as one saw in 1971 war n operation blue star...she was d architect of green revolution in India...Shez still remembered as Indira Amma(mother) in rural parts of india n heavily worshipped by women all over India..her "garibi hatao" slogan is still used by the congress(which infact is a matter of shame to them dat despite declaring dis 30 yrs ago this pple hav still nt hataoed garibi from india)...she was also knwn to sack CM'S of her own parties if they werent doin their jobs acc to her.......hats off to d lady's command....i shudder to think where India would have been on d world map if Indira mam was alive 2de...sm1's nt fair up there!!

"Even if I died in the service of the nation, I would be proud of it. Every drop of my blood... will contribute to the growth of this nation and to make it strong and dynamic." ...her last words...

INDIA 2050...no, its not a love story....

2009-10-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

many things will change....bt dont knw for d better....

corruption will reach new highs...called e- corruption n so on....

roads will be the same..

slums will multiply 3 folds....

2nd part of bandra worli sea link will be completed...n called sonia gandhi sea link...

terrorists will wreck havoc as usual...n nsg pple still given vada pavs n best vehicles...

mukesh ambani would have brought whole of south mumbai along wid its people...

kashmir will be completely out of our jurisdiction...n india wud be continuing wid its peace process wid pak...

every minister will continue to die of natural causes leaving crores behind for his siblings..

sanjay dutt will be awarded best citizen of india award.....

kasab will become an MLA through samajwadi party...n by dat time 100 karkare's would have died...

indian jails will be accidentally awarded best 5 star hotels by discovery living.....

many pple wont need things like clothes n censor board of india will be thrown out by mahesh bhatt n like minded people...thus allowing obscenity to proper n thereby including it in our culture...

mahesh bhatt will be given best talent hunt cum placement agency award by pak...

people involved in 26/11 will be convicted...sme will ev1 be acquitted...

sharad pawar will be given best agriculture minister of d century award for killing 50000 farmers...

recession will finally get over...

dawood will die peacefully in his sleep in pakistan....n so will tiger memon n all..

china will address india as sovereign n independent states of india..thereby establishing 28 embassy's...

nano wil be replaced by deco , pico n so on...

to be continued.....:):)

Remembering Kargil...do we?

2009-07-26T04:03:00.000-07:00

Its been 10 years today since we achieved a comprehensive, booming victory over diabolicaly inclined, merceneries coming frm across the border...young men...evn younger than wht i am now, faced those intruders with daredevil courage & drove them back to where they belong!!!...they had bullets right in d forehead, in d eye, on d temple...coz d enemy was at an advantage position sitting on d top & could see evry movement of our troops...there were experts saying all over d world dat only Indian Army could have achieve victory in dat war..& seeing d events unfolded..no one dare disagree!!!

The intruders included nt only fidayeens, bt also pak northen light infantry & regular paratroopers armed wid stinger missiles, rations dat could last for 6 months..& a hawk's eye view of d national highway...what was more disturbing fact abt d war was d immense unhuman brutality shown by these infiltrators..making a mockery of d Geneva Convention!!!...(d infiltration was 1st detected by a group of sherpas who fwd dis msg to d army..d army sent a patrol to inspect if it was true & d patrol party never returned)...the way those men were tortured by those bloody A@##% wid cigeratte burns on limbs & chest for 22 days b4 being shot in d head will make ur bloof boil!!!!....wen a person recieved a body of his brother(capt saurabh kalia) who was in dat patrol..in his words" his head was of d size of my finger, there were no eyes, i could only identify him by his eyebrows"!!! (i have a copy of his post mortem report if ny1 has doubts)

But the point is dat the nation has forgotten d invaluable sacrifices these young men made for our future...today evry breath im taking is forever indebted to them bt do all think like me( or am i an emotional fool , as many would describe me)....they gave their life at d age of 21-22 so dat one day i & u will turn 22!

The congress pple refuse to accept dis as a victory or a war coz it wasnt fought wen their govt was in power??...they are asking do we need to celebrate dis day, how dare they evn ask dis question to d pple, to d forces???...they generalised it as a "small conflict" WTF!!!!...it was a "BLOODY WAR"...a small confict does nt takes place in a 150 km long border, a small conflict does nt involve artillery shell bombing, a small conflict does not involve stinger missiles & northern light infantry of a country(pak) taking part in it, a small conflict does not involve infiltration miles deep in another country.......today d ministry of defence ruled out celebrating it officially coz it would hav an adverse effect on d recently initiated dialogue process by both countries!!!so it means the sacrifices have been flushed out frm history??? & for whom ? for a nation who im sure will again backstab us as it did 4 times b4!!!

the BJP made the victory as theirs...ask d pple who fought d war,they never said they fought for d bjp or d congess....they fought for me, for u, for evry common man in india whose sitting at home comfortably coz he's assured he's guarding him frm north to south & east to west!!!

Take a look at all national daily's 2de, nt a single newspaper has a headline abt d sacrifices made by these men in kargil ten yrs ago....times of india has mentioned smewhere in a corner in a middle page...if dats d attitude & importance we give to their sacrifices...do u think ny1 in future will fight for us...all they want from us is juz "Remembrance"...& we are lazy enough to evn skip dat!!!:(

A word for peace lovers....it was india who went wid a hand of friendship in d winter of 1999 & in return we got was a typical backstab by our neighbors...it was india who evn had a chance to cross d loc & annihilate pak completely bt didnt do so coz therz a difference between us & them & it ought to be!!

peace lovers hate wars, are who hates them more than d pple who fight it...its easy to sit abroad(for d NRI's) or in ur drawing room( the richy rich's) sayin there shudnt be war....bt i juz want to ask one simple question to these pple...wht do they do wen a snake or a rat enters their house??????..do they treat him wid milk??? or they make a banner saying plz go back??...u might be thinking im tokin crap here...exactly,dats d point...its no point in having a dialogue wid rats & snakes... why dont peace lovers go & stand wid these banners in warfront????... they will be trimmed to pieces im sure!!!
these so called peace loves wont undstnd dis untill sm1 from their family or friend circle has fought in d war....& if they still dont undstnd....they shud hang their head in shame!!

peace lovers say pak is a beautifull country, i dnt disagree....their pple are very are loving , i dnt disagree.......bt their constant greed to acquire our land & constant fidgeting wid india...has cost them dear & will continue to cost them dear in future too!!!

Composite Dialogue...MY FOOT!!

2009-07-17T00:01:00.000-07:00

India's policy against global terrorism...is one step fwd & 2 steps back...instead of sending a strong signal to pak we have invited dialogues??...WTF!!!...were dialogues nt there before 26/11 OR are we still waiting for a 26/11 of a higher magnitude????.....its hightime pple realise d govt's nt serious abt it or is reluctant under american pressure?.....evry1 has vested interests in it(sme terror attacks) by the way....

our commandoes face them...& during elections these pple say we fought d terrorists wid grit & determination!!(it was sad to see our PM sayin dis during d recently concluded lok sabha elections)

the other day pak openly said "NO PEACE WITHOUT KASHMIR"....isnt dat a reason enough for our govt to take an aggressive stance on it?????...& look wht we hav done now at d NAM summit in egypt...invited dialogues!!!!

kasab has started demanding biryani & books nw in jail(dnt be surprised if he's realised after spending a year or two)...it takes a whopping one crore for his security evryday.....& we r nearing a year to dat dastardly attacks...i feel pitty towards d family of our brave officers who died in dat attack....coz by inviting a traitor (& yes, i mean it..we hav been backstabbed 4 times by pak ) we have only rubbed salts on their wounds.....how wud u feel if d person whoz responsible for d death of ur loved ones is having tea wid our PM??.....pple wnt realise dis untill they are victimised!!!....& the govt knws it...

why do we need sm1's permission to solve our own problems.....why cant we finish dat kasab's trial in 6 months & send him to d gallows..
i must appreciate usa on dis..they went in iraq, made their president run for his life, captured him...gave him an option in court ..& executed him...all within a year!!!.......whtever their intentions were, i dnt care but their justice is immediate!!!...nt like ours...our judical system sucks...i can murder pple here in broad daylight & still be assured of my safe realise afterwards!!!!

The Opposition says our PM is d weakest our country ever had...i was apprehensive to agreee to it 1st...bt after seeing his colours changing at d NAM summit(coz he went there speaking aggressively abt terrorism) ...i am more likely to agree on it!!!

PS: I am nt a bjp man nor a cpi ...i dnt want to degrade myself by associating wid these PARASITES!!!
I hav juz let my feelings here...my sentiments...

if u relate to it or agree to it evn 50% ....dis post will be vindicated!!!!

The media killed MJ....

2009-06-26T12:49:00.000-07:00

As we mourn the legend, let's not forget we were the ones making fun of him a few days ago..There must have been days when Michael would have wished he was someplace else, anywhere but in Neverland!
A human simply cannot withstand this level of prolonged stress,' said Michael Levine, Jackson's publicist during the hellish child-molestation trials. The representative's statements reflect the mental state of a man who was subject to ridicule in almost every country he went.
It soon became tough explaining to kids what Michael was, since they only laughed or squirmed when they saw poor Jacko whimpering in those tabloid shots - broken nose and all. Stand-up comedians often opened with a Michael joke, leaving the crowd in splits - Chris Rock must have made a millions off those jokes.And then the trashiest of British tabloids armed themselves with the most personal attacks they could have made against a man, who was clearly disturbed and hurt.
He wanted to be surrounded by screaming fans, a sight every rockstar feeds off, but all Michael got was a kick in the teeth by tabloids churning out dirt by the dozen.The complainants, Jordan Chandler (then 13) and his father Evan Chandler, refused to pursue the case, instead preferring to settle with $22 million in settlements. Michael Jackson, who faced a 25-minute strip search by the police during the case, was left distraught, tired and humiliated.
But the media never let go. Painted in a very unfavourable light, the singer found it hard to step away from the media glare and, instead, chose to spend more time inside his freakish Neverland residence, indulging in a copious mix of drugs and self-loathing. The loneliness Jacko spoke about was refusing to let go and the world was burying him - wiping off decades of chart-topping hits and success.
It was almost as if the world wanted to have a little fun with the 11-year-old from Jackson Five - give him a sort of a shakedown. Michael Jackson was nearing the end of his days ever since he tried to live his life to the fullest. His marriage with Lisa Marie Presley (Elvis Presley's daughter) was dismissed by insiders as just another ploy to detract the world from the child-molestation scandals and Jacko was soon left with no option, but to further hide himself from daylight - the madness had take over.
His 50 concerts in London was by all means ambitious - even for Michael. Many feel he was in no condition to live up to the hype and it's a pleasant feeling knowing he's in someplace nice - not performing again to prove himself or waiting to hear what the tabloids had to say the next day. MJ never would've survived another media assault.
It's also just pathetic how, on the day of his death, the world turns around and showers praises on a guy we loved throwing dirt at. We made MJ's life a living hell with the constant ridicule, attacking an already broken man and destroying his very will to survive. That 11-year-old from Jackson 5 ended up as Whacko Jacko, a torn, weak, disturbed and distraught man in his final years - and we're all going to hell for it!!!
Such are the examples modern history pulls out when you ask for Michael Jackson - the lonely King of Pop who, only in death, found what he was looking for - some respect!

'People think they know me, but they don't. Not really. Actually, I am one of the loneliest people on this earth. I cry sometimes, because it hurts. It does. To be honest, I guess you could say that it hurts to be me"....
"I just want to say to fans in every corner of the earth, every nationality, every race, every language: I love you from the bottom of my heart. I would love your prayers and your goodwill, and please be patient and be with me and believe in me because I am completely, completely innocent. But please know a lot of conspiracy is going on as we speak" - Michael to the world.

Disclaimer: dis is a genuine piece of information i gathered from the web today...its nt written by me...its sole purpose is to underline d dangerous side of the greedy media & hw it snatched a superstar away frm d world!!!

Those were the best days of my life!!!

2009-06-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

Engineering, a long word wid a long syllabus i used to think wen i just joined my college....i was very negative right from day one...thinking dat failure & KT in engineering was very much inevitable how much u study....a profilic bunker(which i was b4 & after my 1st sem in engg) lyk me used to sit for lectures from morning 9:15 am till 5:45 in d evening(coz we were told by our profs dat sitting for lectures will fetch us good term works)....i was homesick for d first few days, never travelled dat far away from home...the station was visible from our classrooms, evry nw & then i used to look there at d trains hoping wen i will catch dat train back home....dis environment is so full of unfriendly & selfish pple trying to succeed at any cost....later, i realised they werent selfish bt infact they were apprehensive abt failure....nyways, i never took time to make new friends wherever i went & dis was no different ...soon i had my bunch of pple...who wud eventually become my project partners in final year...oops no girls yet...used to talk for only formal reasons wid them .( my friends nw wud nt believe dis, in my junior college days i never spoke wid ny girl for 2 years..:P).

First sem results were out....& i got two KT's ....i was a fool who wud nt evn attempt the complete paper coz in my mind i had already decided dat it was tough & beyond me...dis taught me a golden rule in engg....."whatever u knw, write it in d paper , whether it is asked or nt...juz include it smewhere & make dat paper bulky, dnt leave d paper coz u dnt knw d ans, juz write wat u knw & you will pass"... i cleared sem2 & wid it those 2 KT's....in sem2, my college life was beginning to open up...movies, cricket, exploring new places etc ...I alwys had a turbulent relationship wid all my professors & d fact dat they didnt give me good term works evn when i had good attendance in sem1 made me a regular defaulter for d rest of my engineering days...

Then came d second year...my daily routine had changed...d time was same bt it was all bunk , bunk & bunk....engg is all abt self study so i was never at loss while bunking those lectures, d only loss i wud hav is my internal marks which were anyways low.....By this time i had befriended almost all guyz...still no girls....only boyz for movies, picnic, canteen masti etc....

People wud come wid me juz because i wud make them laugh nonstop...nyreason , nytopic, imitating sme prof or discussing abt a girl...i cud churn out jokes abt ny topic dat was on,...& dis was also d reason i got familier wid girls later on who wud eventually become my most trusted lieutenants also...
I was a complete Rebel wen it came to our professors & d whole system....i never spoke sweetly wid them...."tede sawalon ka teda jawaab hi hota hai" wud be my reply wen my friends wud ask me afterwards"....

Third year....i had seen d highs of my engg career after my lows in d 1st sem....nw it was time for campus recruitment...1st company: INFOSYS..i never had ny hopes coz i had heard ki dis was d toughest aptitude tests to crack...i went directly for dat test wid only 3-4 hrs of preparation coz we were told abt dis only 1 day b4....Fortunately i cracked dat Apti...bt was filtered out in HR round...can u belive it ....filtered out for answering questions like what was ur name, hobbies etc....nyways, i was very dissappointed coz i never thought i wud get eliminated in d most stupid way.. a personal interview!!!....then a week later i appeared for ACCENTURE...sme 2000 pple were there for recruitment....i didnt clear evn d aptitude dis time...i was very down...my confidence hit rock bottom bt from nowhere a very good friend called me & said "its a matter of time ajay for u getting selected, dun wrry" .....she went on to become one of my best friends...i never expected sm1 to say dis to me.....&i took those words wid me for d next company(TechMahindra) were i was eventually selected.....

Then we went for an industrial visit to bangalore were d friendship & d bond grew evn stronger...we were all inseperable...after dat i had several such small trips wid my friends till my last days of engg...

Fourth & Last year...by now academics had d last priority for me..such a turnaround frm 1st year...i never thought a journey dat began on such a negative & boring note would turn out to be so wonderfull & longlasting & unforgettable....can ny1 rewind d time for me plzz...i had never imagined me sayin dis wen i was in 1st year....

sme1 has rightly said dat "before u die if u hav made 5 genuine friends in your life u hav lived a wonderfull life" ...in my case, just multiply the 5 by 10!!!!!!!!!!!!

100 truths abt me....tagged by stephan

2009-03-19T11:31:00.000-07:00

so here it goes.....
1. Last beverage: milk
2. Last phone call: Joseph
3. Last text message: A girl whose name starts wid "A"
4. Last song you listened to: "Tu hi to meri dost he..." frm YUVRAAJ
5. Last time you cried: months ago

HAVE YOU EVER...
6. Dated someone twice: Naa, Not even once..
7. Been cheated on? cant say...
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? No
9. Lost someone special? No
10. Been depressed? Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up? .....been drunk :Yes threw up : NO

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. orange
14. blue

HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: No
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: almost evry1....
23. How many kids do you want to have: its up to my partner(her wish....)....ideally 2...
24. Do you have any pets: No
25. Do you want to change your name: No
26. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing...
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.30A.M.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was online....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : a good news in my life..
30. Last time you saw your father: an hour ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my fortune...
32. Most visited web page: orkut

Whats your:
33. Name: Ajay
34. Nicknames: none
35. Zodiac sign: Cancer
36. Male or female or transgendered: Male.
37. Elementary: Blue Bell's child centre
38. School: A.F.A.C. high school
39. Colleges: N.G. Acharya College,TERNA Engg College.
40. Hair color: Black
41. Long or short: Short
42. Height: 167 cms
43. Do you have a crush on someone? No.
44. Ever been in love?Yes
45. Piercings? N0
46. Tattoos? No
47. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
48. First surgery: None
49. First piercing: wen i was a kid...cnt remember d exact age..
50. First best friend: suraj
51. First sport you loved: Cricket
52. First pet : not yet
53. First vacation: Matheran
54. First concert: not yet
55. First crush:cnt remember...

RIGHT NOW:
56. Eating: Nothing
57. Drinking: Nothing
58. I'm about to: sleep
59. Listening to: nothing
60. Waiting for: dis list to get over...

YOUR FUTURE :
61. Want kids? Yes
62. Want to get married? Yes
63. Careers in mind? Cnfused..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
64. Lips or eyes: Eyes
65. Hugs or kisses: both
66. Shorter or taller: ideally d same height...but either ways will do....
67. Older or Younger: either ways will do...
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
70. Sensitive or loud: :Both
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: Never....i'll never ever do dat!!!!
74. Lost glasses/contacts: Not lost but broke a few...
75. Sex on first date: Never
76. Broken someone's heart: dnt knw.....i dnt think i hav d attributes to do so & i m glad for it...
77. Had your own heart broken: Yes
78. Been arrested: No
79. Turned someone down: Yes
80. Cried when someone died: Yes...
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: Yes....
82. Miracles: No, never...
83. God: No, never...
84. Love at first sight: cant say....
85. Heaven: No
86. Santa Clause: No
87. Kiss on the first date? Yes
88. Angels: Yes..(in d form of human)
89. Devils: Yes..( again in d form of human)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? YESSSSS!!!!!!.......a professor in my college!!!
93. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Let's skip dis one...i dnt hav many options...
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Many times
95. Wanted to steal you friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? Never...

Associate with someone you know:
96. White: My Mom
97. Black: Dinesh
98. Pink: Kajal Singh
99. Red: Reema.
100:Posting this as 100 Truths? YES

Back 2 School!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

I remember i cried a lot for the first few days in school, i used to think ki ma parents have left me here forever, finally i was convinced by ma father by giving me 2 big cadbury chocolates, but unfortunately for him it became a habbit & i refused going to school w/o ma share of chocolates, even my tiffin used to contain stuff lyk cakes,sweets ......ma parents might hav spent double or even triple in buying me sweets & chocolates than d school fees & bcoz i was very special at home so nobody refused me nything......my grandmother used to carry me to school wen ma father went to office, she never let me touch ma feet on d ground on d way till we reached d school gates & this was d case evryday!!......i was d best student there ,which frankly, i never knew untill d other day wen i was going thru ma imp documents where i found my junior & senior kg results, hehe, it sounds gr8 to stand 1st or 2nd in KG.......

After two years in KG, i went to another school for ma primary & secondary schooling, here i didnt cry, here also my daily pampering continued till 5 th std.......but i had became d most talkative & mischievous kid in d class....ma reports in 1st, 2nd, 3rd & 4th std read " studies well, but does nt let others study", "most mischievous", "most talkative, cant keep quite for a min".....all these remarks wer goin to stay wid me for d rest of ma lyf!!!

In secondary schooling , i had turned into a nuisance actually.....nw ma parents wer being called regularly, for all d wrng reasons, .......i was d laziest kid in class wen it came to homeworks, i never did ma homework at home ,alwys at the beginning of dat particular lect, i never used to answer questions which were asked(nt even nw..) but i used to tell ma frnds d answer..,which was usually right, they wud say "tujhe ata tha to bola kyu nahi?" i wud rply "are nahi re, usse shock lagega aur next tym se voh sirf mujhe he poochegi"........i never wanted the teacher to knw dat i knew d ans & even 2de im lyk dis only.....by the tym i reached 7th std, i was setting new standards......my school calender was flooded wid remarks which had to b signed by my parents, bt aftersmtym i used to sign it myself......i had bunked ma 1st lect wen i was in seventh.....jumping over a 6 feet wall......all these things helped me a lot in Engg!!!!......its nt dat i used to hate school...i just njoyed doin dat & dat also became a habbit for life!!!!!

In d meantime our grp had become very big ...& v continued our ways till tenth ....one very naughty thing v did which i wud lyk to mention here is..." ma frnds used to tease a particular girl a lot, so much so ki they wrote a song for her,which even mentioned her father's name, forgive me, i was in noway linked wid it, but since it was my grp,evryone was suspended for a whole week"......juz to to checkout d thrill of copying in a exam, i tried dat also, but got caught immediately & dat exp was nt thrilling!!!!.....i had become a nuisance for ma school but they wer alwys puzzled ki "y is he doin dat when he is such a good student"...........frankly , i also dnt knw d answer for dat......i alwys hated teachers for sme reason...mind u, not all....sme are very much responsible for shaping my career.....

I passed out in 2003 & d golden days of masti were all but over(only for d platinum days to begin in college, i'll defly write abt dat in future)............nwdays only few pple are in touch wid me frm school & surprise surprise ...none of them are frm my grp.....they are all girls, wid whom i used to fight......d other day i met one in a bus & she was recollecting all d jokes & fun i had made during ma school days, she said i'll never forget ur jokes for life...........i didnt remember nything, but she thanked me for d wonderfull memories...she particularly told me how i hav become an introvert nw....nt d same energetic , lively anymore...........i dnt knw if i hav srsly bcum like dat nw.......but whatever........school days wer d foundation of my academic life in future but also played a very big part in me becoming a Monster, a prankster, a person who loves to break rules .........but i dnt hav ny regrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Not at all!!!!!

NOTE: this post is not meant to inspire pple in any way!!!!!!

the unexplained...

2009-03-06T07:33:00.000-08:00

smethings never hav ny explanation, for eg: why do we have a day of 24 hrs, why d sun rises in d east & sets in d west alwys, why all d planets move in a particular orbit, how cum they dnt collide, high tide & low tide, earth's gravitational force, magnetic force.. etc ......these r all scientific things .......but even in our personal lyf, many things go unexplained.......

for eg: d almighty's uneven distribution in evrything(love, wealth, happiness...) , ....why there are only a handfull of moments in life to cherish & many to regret,... why cant i be happy, cheerfull & carefree all d time,.... why smetymes ur sitting in a room thinkin abt sm1 & d very next instance dat soul is in frnt of u or calls u........, why do 2 pple can be best of frnds but not lyf partners or vice versa,... why & how do pple fall in love,....why does failure teaches u more than success,....why do v dnt alwys get d things we desire for in lyf,.... why do v see places in our dreams we have never been to or see people v have never met b4,... why cant our dreams be replayed once again,... why do pple think they r being treated unfairly by their destiny even wen they r born wid a golden spoon in their mouth,.... why pple do all d vices even wen they are fully aware of their effects, why do..........

why m i writing this post????????????????????..................plzzzzzz forgive me for dis!!!!!!

aimless in life...

2009-03-01T22:21:00.000-08:00

hello evrybody, dis is my 1st post in ma very 1st blog, im nervous while writing nw, but i want to speak out wht my mind is thinking since d last few months........
i dnt knw wht im doing wid ma lyf, where it is heading, do i ever wanted to do wht im doin nw, wht is ideal for me, im juz so cnfused......i m in my last 2 months of engineering, being succesfully placed in an MNC, lyf was going very well but since last one year i m suffering setbacks after setbacks, both in personal as well in professional life.....im bruised & battered in my personal life & adding to my misery is the current economic slowdown which makes my job in future more vulnerable even if do nothing wrong.....d bottom line is dat "i have become a pessimist"!!!!

smtymes i wonder y all these things are happening to me, wherever i go my badluck follows, for eg: juz look at d current economic slowdown, d IT industry was alwys booming, but wen im abt to enter, it suffered heavily......dis is just one instance.....
actually, i never imagined myself working in an AC cabin on a laptop & being just another employee for d rest of ma lyf, whatever i"ll do , i want to b at d top, "d elite" to b precise.......ma family members say i shud giv d civil services after my engg....smetymes i think an MBA will b good...im diagonally parked right nw........

but lyf is such dat u dnt get to do evrything u desire, sme constraints in ma lyf dnt allow me to follow my dreams......... nothing comes easily to me for d 1st time,( talkin abt love, its not even worth writing here!!!) success has never come to me easily, i had to strive hard for it, smetymes fight it out, actually dis is wht i lyk also, but cmon, i m human, i dnt think only my hardwork & good nature will take me places.....i dnt believe in GOD.....I m sorry to say dis, but he has never convinced me about his existence even once............now, i hav decided just to flow wid d wind.....wherever my destiny will take me , i'll go.......im not goin to interfere wid it...........HOPE is all i hav right now!!!